The Current and the Chalice

Looking back on this week, what I have felt is a definite increase in the intensity of energy, of light moving through the body, through the nervous system, the nadis, and the auric field.

It comes in big bursts, almost like downloads that drive their way through the nervous system. And then there is a point in the day when I feel a kind of burnout, a sense of being 'spent.'

I am not looking at this specifically from a biological perspective. I am contemplating it through the lens of my Alchymical practice: the experience of the nervous system adapting to higher and higher levels of intensity, current, and frequency.

I am curious whether other people are experiencing this. I know some are aware of cosmic events, such as solar flares, and wonder about their relationship to what they feel. For me, what is especially present is the Alchymical process of adaptation and integration.

The energies I have been working with most intensely over the past few weeks are Initiatory Current and Golden Manifestation. They have felt like very intense energies for burning up the dross, burning up resistance, and allowing the current of creation, the current of divine actualization, the current of light and life, to move through this vehicle of the body with greater intensity.

There are moments when it feels as though the current wants to bring me to the speed of light and then dissolve, dissolve into just this current. I feel it intensely every day. And then comes a moment when I feel spent.

I find myself particularly interested in this moment of feeling 'spent'. Rather than interpreting it as an interruption to the process, I wonder whether it could be understood as an essential part of its rhythm.

Perhaps the pause is not separate from the initiation. Perhaps the pause is where the initiation becomes integrated.

Receiving the Initiatory Current can feel like an extraordinary opening, an acceleration, a dissolving of boundaries, a movement towards something vast and expansive.

But integration has a different rhythm. It asks for spaciousness, stillness, nourishment, grounding, and perhaps even periods of apparent inactivity.

In the language of Alchymie, the chalice is as important as the fire. The fire transforms, but the chalice must be tended if the transformation is to become embodied.

As I tune into that, I sense a process of nervous system adaptation to a higher level of voltage, if you like. The body is the Chalice, the living vessel through which the current is received and embodied. And I wonder whether the chalice itself needs moments of stillness in which to expand its capacity to receive. So I have been contemplating this morning: how does one locate the balance?

What is the balancing act? What are the practices for renewal and recovery within such an intense process of adaptation? How do we honour the intensity of the current while also attending to integration?

And this is where I find myself today, on this beautiful Mahalakshmi portal, celebrating the blessing current of Lakshmi, goddess of abundance. It feels perfect that this contemplation is arising here.

I am going to sit with that. And I would love to hear your reflections. Are you noticing your own rhythms of intensity, integration, and renewal?